It's 2022 now. What have happened in the past years that I skipped blogging and suddenly it's 2022. COVID happened, life happened, and mostly work. I was obsessed with working out, but now I have skipped working out for quite some time too. 

Anyway, I just want to make a log about what's dearly to my heart for now. New jam for daily mood booster. Another band which I recently found but apparently has debuted since long time ago. And how I found this band was when I found a random video of fans singing along, super duper beautiful. From then I found out the concert was Day 6's concert which debuted from way back in 2015, this very song 'Congratulations' was their debut album. Instantly hooked, but too bad not all their songs are my jams. 

 Enjoy!

There will always be 1 member of the group that caught my attention. For Day 6, it's Wonpil, very charming & cute 아주 잘생긴 동생 😝

 

credit to those took these pics

- meLLe -

newly found gem

Hi, it's 2020 already. Can't believe how time flies. It's one day past my birthday. Been a long time since my last post *as always. And here we are in the midst of COVID-19 pandemic. Never had I imagined waking up one day and suddenly we are in a world that is completely different because of a mutated virus. This is crazy, suddenly we are prohibited from going outside for the sake of our own lives, wearing mask everywhere like we're some short of Korean celebrities at the airport. Anyway I feel that I am blessed and with the current job I am in now, in this situation, couldn't imagine myself being in another scenario.

And in the midst of this pandemic, where I could not go for shopping spree in shopping mall, I've been browsing everything and I found another gem which makes my heart swells. Now I know why people use the idiom. You just feel like it swells inside your thoracic cage, the feeling only, not the real cardiomegaly.

Why am I always few years late for finding a new fandom? Same thing with EXO, I honestly am the type who get bored easily. So I will always like EXO and their songs, but for now I found a fresh genre of music, NCT ya'll! I think NCT came to Indonesia like last year along with EXO, and their song 'Boom' was just being played all the time I turn my TV on, they were advertising it a lot. It just kinda stuck in my head. And also last Christmas I've been listening to Christmas carol when I stumbled on Jaehyun's cover of Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas, but back then I was just enjoying the Christmasy feel. I did not even look at his gorgeous face, damn! Only in April 2020, I started to get hooked with NCT's songs. They have very fresh feeling, and almost all of their songs are perfect for workout. And as usual, I always fell for one or two gorgeous faces, and turned out that they are fluent in English, have lived in the States as well. The ABC aura, or shall I say ABK, always got me hooked. Here is some feast for your eyes *and mine, of course! I'm just gonna forget that I am a noona already for EXO, needless to say for NCT, the age gap is surely huge AF! But I will break my own condition if it's for Jaehyun 😜 어지러위!  

SM is super "crazy", how can they have all superb visuals?! I have been an SM stan since Super Junior & SNSD era, and I have never move to others.

Is he even a human? So flawless! Where can I find one like this?!

fangirling forever

Well.. well.. once a fangirl forever a fangirl at heart..

My newest crush, Rowoon from SF9 😍 (what is even SF9, had I not know Rowoon).

Been crazy about this drama called Extraordinary You which Rowoon acts in. I was totally mesmerized by his handsome face. This drama is very refreshing and the plot is very complex you can't guess where it goes. And I really love the actress who plays Dan-oh, she is the one who plays as Ye-suh in the infamous Sky Castle. Long story short, great acting skills, great faces, great story plot! Very very recommended.

One look at the preview and I'm hooked!
😍😍😍

My old crush, Joo Jihoon 😍 never gets old.

Since Goong, Mask and etc etc.

The one that looks like Joo Jihoon, Wonwoo Seventeen?

The ever so dapper looking baby Chanyeolie 😍😍😍

xmas 2018

Writing this tonight just because I don't feel sleepy yet..

This Christmas feels a little brighter because of EXO. Quite a few variety shows released this December are featuring EXO. The inner fangirl noona of mine is totally excited 😆

It's all started back in April 2018 but I forgot how I began noticing EXO. What I know for sure is that I am completely trapped in the fandom (fan kingdom? anyway, that's how they call themselves) of EXO called EXO-L (EXO-Love I guess?). I've been leaving my teenage idol craze thing way back in the past. The last time I was this crazy was during Westlife and The Moffatts era. But somehow this year I suddenly feeling young again, loving this group of out-of-the-world handsome boys. Yes, boys, you guys reading it correctly, they are waaay much younger than I am. O.M.G. I'm just soo in loove with these talented young lads. Have never I encounter any other group, be it Western or Asian, that all of its member are equally super handsome and super talented. What superior genes pooling over here. I do like Leehom back then but even a Leehom is not that handsome compared to EXO, let aside Westlife. I am soo over Caucasian men. I prefer Asians, hihi.

These guys really are blessed with good genes from their parents. Not even Super Junior makes my heart flutter like EXO does. 

I am quite late to join the fandom. I've just started to like EXO in the Kokobop era but they actually debuted long time ago in 2012. And to be honest, as I dig deeper into their career path and I found out that they used to have more members originated from Mainland China, I think I'd still prefer the EXO now without their Chinese ex-members. There's only one Chinese member left now (whom I'm not very fond of 😝). 

I really hope that I could go to their concerts.

 

Oh, and don't forget to check their MVs! Who knows you'll become their next victim just like me ~

 

 

- meLLe -

everglow

For the last few days I've been listening Everglow sung by Coldplay. It is literally on repeat, I even heard it was played on a department store nearby my house hehe. I've heard it somewhere and it was catchy but I have never payed attention to the lyrics until this song was sung by EXO's Chanyeol on his noona's wedding day. And it was so touching, I mean.. check the song out (I will attached a Youtube link below).. the lyrics is so deep and it makes me miss my mom.

And below was the video when Chanyeol sang it for his noona. Super touching. I can't imagine if it was me (as his noona), I'd be crying heaps.

And here is the lyrics..

oh they say people come, say people go
this particular diamond was extra special
and though you might be gone, and the world may not know
still I see you, celestial

like a lion you ran,  a goddess you rolled
like an eagle you circled, in perfect purple
so how come things move on, how come cars don’t slow
when it feels like the end of my world
when I should but I can’t let you go?

but when I’m cold, cold
oh when I’m cold, cold
there’s a light that you give me when I’m in shadow
there’s a feeling you give me, an everglow

like brothers in blood, sisters who ride
and we swore on that night we’d be friends til we die
but the changing of winds, and the way waters flow
life as short as the falling of snow
and now I’m gonna miss you I know

but when I’m cold, cold
in water rolled, salt
I know that you’re with me and the way you will show
and you’re with me wherever I go
and you give me this feeling this everglow

oh- I I I I
what I wouldn’t give for just a moment to hold
yeah I live for this feeling this everglow

so if you love someone, you should let them know
oh the light that you left me will everglow

I highlighted some parts that really hit me. Life is indeed as short as the falling of snow. So if you love someone, you should let them know. Don't ever miss the chance or you'll regret your whole life and you can never turn back the time.

Mama, I've been missing you since the day you left. I am missing you now and I will miss you always and forever ~  

being nostalgic

I am being nostalgic at this very moment while writing this entry and listening to Ra.D's song.

I have a good news! I have just found the blogs I had abandoned for ages, yay! I have had few blogs before this one but I just couldn't log in to the blogs I used to own simply because I was too ignorant to update the email changing, the shutting down of hotmail, and so on and so on. And for a moment I just completely forgot even the title of my own blogs hehe.

So before I lost them again.

silverline on a cloud was my very first blog. If you're curious and click on the link you will be directed right to the very first page of my first baby. I wrote about just anything that comes to my mind. The entries were written during my puberty phase so *haha those pondering days trying to be poetic but failed miserably. But well yeah the damage has been done 😝 History is history..

iNdiGo was actually the third blog I own *gosh, I completely forgot my second blog. Dang! I have finally found myself starting to feel quite comfortable to be in my own skin. So it was quite an enjoyable-to-read one. I was supposed to continue writing on this blog but sadly it was on either hotmail or yahoo platform *the point is both died and had to be changed to a google one but the old ignorant self of mine ignored it. Now I couldn't log in to this one. So pardon for the typos there.

Those steps have led me to this blog. I deliberately make the design exactly the same as iNdiGo as it was supposed to be the continuation of it. It is the book number 2 of my rambling.

Cheers 🍻

- meLLe -

the night of Asian Games closing ceremony 2018

The title could be misleading I warn you beforehand..

It is indeed the night of Asian Games closing ceremony 2018, Indonesia happened to be the host. I am writing this while waiting for the closing ceremony. Just because the opening ceremony was a huge success, the closing too should be worth watching. Plus the guests are Korean idols, Super Junior and iKON. Super Junior was my very first exposure to the Kpop addiction *little did I know once you've fallen into the addiction, you can not undo the effect. I have been a victim of Hallyu ever since, until this very second. As for iKON, I didn't know much about the band but they do have a catchy song that I listen to sometimes when I'm driving.

Starting from browsing the internet to look up some EXO reality shows on Youtube, I ended up finding out that they came to Indonesia not only once, they came thrice. OMG I couldn't believe myself. They held 2 concerts and came for a music bank. I missed those, dang! Oh well, I am super baby EXO-L, just recently on 2018. No wonder I didn't care back then. I heard about the euphoria I guess but I was just like who the hell were they.

Brb watching the closing ceremony!

Back! Got too bored watching the nation parade *if you know what I mean

This is just for my archive about those EXO's concerts I've missed. 

Their first concert in Jakarta was on September 2014 "EXO Planet #1 - The Lost Planet". At the time I must've been like "what is EXO?" I was still in China doing my clinical rotation in the hospital. On complete hiatus from Kpop wave because I was about to face my graduation exam.

The second one was on February 2016 "EXO Planet #2 - The EXO'luXion" held in ICE-BSD. Back in Indo for good already. I'm pretty sure it was held the day I went to Aeon BSD with Onik, Intan and Cy. I passed by the venue *tears. I wasn't interested at all because all their fans were teenagers while I thought I won't be a fangirl anymore ever. To be honest, when I was editing this post, as I was uploading the picture, I thought these boys were not my "cup of tea". They only became attractive to me when they're more mature which is in 2018.

The third one was Music Bank held on September 2017 in JIEXPO Kemayoran, I was aware of this one. Umm 그냥...

Tho I felt it is such a pity to miss concerts like EXO's, I prolly not going to watch any of them in Indonesia. I was just too afraid that the fangirls will be too brutal during the concerts. What a conservative side of me, a noona fangirl hehe. But I did missed few concerts back in China tho. There was this Lang Lang concert held in the stadium by my apartment in Suzhou on a December which was the usual exam period for Chinese universities. I care more about my exam. Then there was this Leehom concert in Nanjing but again exam was coming. Heck why it's always near exam time. I guess concerts in China really tested every university student whether they love their idol more or their future more, haha.

Hence I really wish for an ideal job which gives me a good payment and channeling my inner creativity and allowing me to attend hype events.

- meLLe -

bag obsession

Another things that I like more than boys are pretty dresses/clothes and bags. Yass to bags! I remember my mom used to call me 'mata tas-an' means bag-a-holic. Guess what, I still am!

My all time faves are classics. I love simple and minimalistic design that would last for a long long time.

Kelly

 

Herbag

Herbag

Garden Party

 

I found these babies on instagram that turns out to be a Korean brand.

And another gold from instagram, this time from Indonesia.

Doxokimi

Super chic, aren't they? 

- meLLe - 

boy crush

My blog is always about the things that I fond of. Mostly about Korean cuz I just can't drag myself away from K-wave, I am already swept along the curl. No cure, no turning back. It's almost like an addiction. Shall I call myself a hopeless romantic.

Anyway, recently these hunks caught my attention. I am not into Caucasian anymore, so bye Tom Hiddleston and the gang. I am now madly in love with these oppas. 

Yoo Yeon Seok

Lee Sang Yoon

I've been eyeing these oppas since many K-dramas ago. I think I've watched few of Yoo Yeon Seok's movies and dramas, such as 'Architecture 101' and 'A Werewolf Boy'. I've always been noticing that he's handsome but the one that really caught me was his role in 'Mood of the Day'. Heard that there's another movie where he plays as Chil Bong, a handsome highschooler and baseball player, your typical popular oppa at school. Going to watch it later.

About Lee Sang Yoon.. he's kinda cute, I like him since 'Angel Eyes' but not as much as Yoo Yeon Seok. I prefer his reality show called 'Master in the House', I can see that he is as human as everyone else, smart and rational but also clueless and clumsy at the same time, another side of him that I find amusing. For his latest role in 'About Time', hmm... I enjoy watching him and Lee Sung Kyung together in the drama, super good looking couple and pretty outfits. That's why I love K-dramas so much, every aspect is pleasing to the eyes. But story wise, 'About Time' didn't come up to my expectation, visually still very beautiful tho, not gonna complain the stylist.

In conclusion, my ideal type for now is Yoo Yeon Seok. Boyfie/hubby material. I wish I could have him or someone that's like him as my future boyfie/hubby 🙏😜 *setting the bar way too high?

-meLLe-

my kinda jam

Back to writing blog slash procrastinating because I am supposed to write my portfolio on atrial fibrillation. Not your ordinary portfolio since I am working in the medical field.

I was kinda bored while reading on ebook, Youtube is always where I opt to. I was going to find anything entertaining and visually pleasing so I ended up watching Red Velvet's MV Bad Boy. And I realized that my jam is kinda on the quirky side, well at least among my friends. I've always been liking Kpop songs especially the catchy ones to me, like f(x)'s then now Red Velvet's and EXO's. And by looking at my choices hence concluded I am a big fan of SM. Such a great company that gathers great talents with superior aesthetics. Kudos! But one exception is Black Pink which I also found out about this group just recently (like EXO whom I just found few months ago, where on earth was I) -- this quirky girl band is from YG.

Here I just want to post my biases among the idols I like. For me, looking at these beauties is a way to de-stress. 

Anddd.. didn't know when it started, I am digging back into Chinese pop songs recently. I used to love Leehom's songs soo much, but to my surprise, I didn't enjoy it as much now. I like Jay Chou's more.

The first MV gives nostalgic feeling as I've been listening to the song since high school probably, and his new songs are also super catchy, though. He hasn't lost his magic on music. And exception for those 2 Chinese musicians I don't really care about their appearance. I like them just for their music. Unlike Korean artists which really hook me with both their songs and superb visual.

- meLLe -

current obsessions

How can one not love anything about Korean?

I am so into Korean stuffs (not that) recently, it's been since I came back for good. I just love almost everything about Korean. I am a big fan of their beauty products and their entertainment empire. K-dramas hooked me at first sight then variety shows and super recently ("in one week") I was finally able to recognize the difference between the most talked-about new generations of hallyu (only BTS and EXO tho). I'd say it's quite an achievement for me as I was too ignorant about the hype even when my juniors were so excited to come and see "some Korean boyband" concert last year. I didn't know who was it back then. AND, I think I am converting into an EXO-L. Super late to find out about these handsome boys. Thanks to searching for Kpop workout on Youtube. I am a big noona fangirl once again. And, I am enjoying workout at home listening to catchy Kpop songs!

My next bucket list to be crossed is South Korea definitely. I am hauling K-beauty products and traveling and eating! I hope I could go with my papa and dede ~

I've been wanting to have my hair dyed so badly. I did try using a non-permanent hair dye last time but it's washed off too quick, even with sweat and it stained too. If only I am not working in the medical field, I must have had my hair dyed red.

This is the guy who mesmerized me with his chameleon hair. I am as old as his noona, but whatever ~ Soo good looking ~

Plus he came to play with my favorite 쌍둥이 💕

Out of topic, but this is the color I waaanntt so bad 😍 Will red hair suit me?

Good night! 

- meLLe - 

Macups

When I decided to come back to Indo, I was still contemplating whether I should continue my path in medicine or deviate. I ended up "staying". Little did I know that choosing this path led me to few bunches that are dear to my heart. They kinda grew on me.

Meet Macups!

our very last pic taken at RSHS during OBGYN

They are younger than me (same age as my lil bro) but I don't feel like I was the oldest.. My family in RSHS during my "adaptasi". I thank God that I got to meet these guys since the beginning of my rotation. We became close instantly and dunno how I became one of  Macups.

Cookie version of Macups by Macups'-in-law

P.S. check her instagram on sweetbelle.id

Our last bukber / outing

 

I became so attached to them unknowingly, my support system!

dyeing my hair red

One day I was browsing thru my instagram feeds when I found this picture of a hair dye. Out of nowhere this idea came up to me to try dyeing my hair (#instagram_is_dangerous as it may lead to countless online shopping). My hair is thin and quite the oily type that I have to wash my hair everyday if I don't want to have a bad hair day. But when I wash and hairdry it too often I will have split ends. Due to the reasons listed above, I have never had my hair dyed. 

So, what made me want to try this product out? 

First of all, it is a temporary hairdye. Second, it is also a hair treatment. Third, it is a Korean product and a friend of mine happened to be in Korea and opened a pre-order.

This was the hair dye / treatment that I used. April Skin Turn-Up Color Treatment (it's the temporary one, since they also have another products called April Skin Turn-Up Color Cream which are the permanent hair dye ones).

 

I am such a sucker for pastel colors (I mean the packaging). Another reason I bought this brand was because of the packaging. And plastic gloves and gown included, too! 

Life safer! 

I found some pictures on the internet showing the result.

credits to picture owner

I bought the red one, and I didn't apply much. I used like only 1/5 of the tube I think because I just used it for the lower part of my hair. 

This is my normal "never been dyed" hair.

And here is how the color turned out on my unbleached hair. 

Here is some pros and cons.

PROS : 

- They give you plastic gloves and gown.

- The product smells soo good it smells like strawberry (dunno about other color, is it because I bought the red color one?).

- It is indeed a hair treatment because my hair felt softer (tho my hair was always on the smoother side and tend to be oily, the ends are usually drier).

- It claims that the color will only last for about 2 weeks-ish but depends on how often you wash your hair. For me it faded after one week which was good because I can't have red hair for some reason the following week (I washed my hair every other day after I had my hair dyed).

CONS :

- It smudges when your hair is wet, you can't be sweating a lot or wearing white or light colored clothes (solution for this --> wear black).

VERDICT : Good product. I loved it! Should try putting on more dye next time I use it.